The story of Olivia Hope

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I wish I was one of the cool bloggers... know the kind. The kind that updates their blog every other day with cool pics and a way of writing that causes you to rush to the computer to see what they're up to! I really have good intentions of being this kind of person. I love the idea of documenting my life. At any time I can look back on what exactly we were up to a year ago. I can look at the pictures of Gwen and see how much she's changed. I can use this tool as a way to continue to heal and to share and to...well, just get it all out there! I really do have good intentions! Maybe someday...

ANYWAY, I guess you have all heard by now that we are expecting a SON!! I admit I was pretty weirded out when they first told me that we had "changed the recipe"! Are you kidding me?!? A BOY?!!! What the heck am I going to do with a boy?? That probably sounds weird to most of you. I really did want a girl. I'm not hoping or trying to replace Olivia. Trust me when I say I know that can never happen. I don't think I could feel for any other one of my children how I feel for her and I know she will NEVER be replaced or forgotten. But if I'm being completely honest I would have to say that, in some aspect, I believe I would like to gain back what I've lost. I do want Gwen to have a little sister at home, to dress them a like and have two pretty little girls that love each other. I want her to have that a sister to grow close to over the years and share everything with. And who knows, maybe that will still happen some day. Anyway, by the end of the day I was thrilled! This little (or should I say big!) boy has been given to us because this is what we are supposed to have at this time! And yes he seems to be perfectly healthy!! We are blessed!