The story of Olivia Hope

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Miracles will happen

We are praying for a miracle. I know you all are praying with us on this. We are also praying for strength, peace and comfort, guidance of course, but wouldn't a miracle be great?! I mentioned this to a group of friends that has been a big encouragement right now and one of them responded back that she would be praying this too and that miracles WILL happen. That was several weeks ago but I keep going back to that when I pray...miracles WILL happen.
We had a children's Christmas program at church on Sunday. They all did such a great job and I kept smiling thinking about when Gwen is that age and she can participate and do all the cute stuff that kids aren't supposed to do during the program. We all know it just makes the programs that much better! Anyway, one of the songs that the kids sang spoke about letting God into your life and watching the miracles begin. (I don't remember the words) There it was again! Miracles will happen.
We do serve a God of miracles. There is no doubt in my mind and that's why I'm praying so deeply for one...a BIG one. I think, though, that I've let myself believe that a miracle is something big, huge, ASTRONOMICAL, something so far out of our reach that we only see it when it's so big it practically hits us in the face. Has anyone else done that?

1. an effect or extraordinary event in the physical world that surpasses all known human or natural powers and is ascribed to a supernatural cause.
2. such an effect or event manifesting or considered as a work of God.
3. a wonder; marvel.
4. a wonderful or surpassing example of some quality: a miracle of modern acoustics.


an event in the external world brought about by the immediate agency or the simple volition of God, operating without the use of means capable of being discerned by the senses, and designed to authenticate the divine commission of a religious teacher and the truth of his message (John 2:18; Matt. 12:38)....
Thus, being out of the common course of nature and beyond the power of man, they are fitted to convey the impression of the presence and power of God. Where miracles are there certainly God is.

(biblical definition also from

My thoughts are jumbled but what I'm trying to get at here is that if God promises to bless us when we turn our lives over to Him and He promises to show us many great things....what am I trying to say?! Basically this-Without doing a ton of research on the matter (just my findings on we see that in both of these definitions, one biblical and one not, does it not specify the "size" of the miracle. Yes it's something beyond our human strength and yes it is something done by the power of God, but it's not always going to be something HUGE! All this confusion to say that I'm really being challenged to see how God is blessing me right now even in the midst of this devastation. I call it that because I AM devastated. I know it is part of God's plan for us and I know that all things work together for good for those that love God, but this
SITUATION is not good and I am devastated. But what miracles is God doing in my life everyday, that maybe aren't so big they're hitting me in the face, but maybe they are just the perfect thing that he's doing in my life today to show me that He is here, He is working, and He is telling me that He is not done yet?
We are still praying for a big miracle. We haven't felt that God is leading is to pray differently at this point. In the meantime I am also praying for the ability to see what He is doing right now that maybe I would otherwise not pay too much attention to, but maybe those are just the things that are getting me through the day. And they are miracles because I could not do it on my own.

(I apologize for my lack of good sentence structure and for the jumbled thoughts!! There are so many things running through my head that I want to share but it doesn't always stay organized!)


  1. Thanks for this Jen. You might think it is jumbled, but to me you are so clear and insightful.

    It seems that the challenges and miracles go together. I guess this is how God is doing it. We have the unspeakable horrors that Pharaoh did to the Hebrew children and all the joy that came from Moses and the law of God together as a package. I guess in your position you are a lot like Mary who got to experience both the devastation and the joys of her miracle child. The joys and the sorrows together made Mary's child the Jesus we know. All the different things together is who Olivia is so we thank God for her and we will keep praying with you for the miracle.
    - Dave Brown

  2. Hi Jen,
    I was directed to you by our chiropractor who knows you. On Dec 3rd we received news that our baby has anencephaly, it was and is devestating to know your child will not live long if at all outside my womb. But in the past weeks God has given us grace and carried us when we could not go on our own. As I read your posts I could not help but cry because some of the things your saying are exactly what I am thinking.
    Our baby is a boy whom we have named Hezekiah. I am due Dec 30th. I would love to chat with you. We just started a blog but it's nothing fancy
    Just know we are praying for you, I truly can feel some of your pain.
    Looking forward to hearing from you.